Thursday, 20 September 2007

On the 8th day of Ramadan

Today has been the hardest day so far.

I ate before dawn, but clearly not the right stuff. Shakey, sleepy, very thirsty. But I am getting through. The process is more important than my momentary comfort.

I just had a weird experience. I was updating my Facebook and the new app asked for my religion. I sat there for 10 minutes marking and unmarking two different boxes. I could not commit to where I have been for all these years, nor to where it seems I am going. I finally settled on "Multireligious" (yes that was one of the choices!) for now.

I feel that I am straddling a crevasse, trying to keep one foot on either side. Unfortunately (or perhaps fortunately?) the gap is widening and it is about time for me to make a choice.

That's what this fast is all about. Choices.


Sadiq Alam said...

May Beloved One guide you in your spiritual path and may you reach the Truth which is Beauty.

peace and blessings be with you. i am so glad to be able to know you! Praise be unto Him!

Anonymous said...

I had that same experience recently, and described it exactly the same way that you did , although it was in a different context. I hope you find peace in your decision.

otowi said...

I remember feeling the same way. And being afraid of the big leap, I guess you could call it.

Now, 13 years later, I am a Muslim. But, I am American, and I am Christian. I think now I am more Christian than when I was Christian, if that makes any sense. I think, God willing, I am being more true to Jesus (peace be upon him) the way I live and believe now.

But I think everyone has their own journeys to make and own minds to make!

Seeker said...

I absoluteky agree. And the journey is as essential as the destination...without it, we wuld miss much of the value and many of lessons we need.