I am camera-less for now, so my Pink Saturday post has to rely on words and other people's images. But the memories are all mine.
Baby Cuddles. (I'm amazed that I actually found a picture of her online!)
Lots of little girls have memories of a special doll that they loved. But this was different.
Cuddles taught me a lesson I've never forgotten...you see, I really wanted that doll.
I REALLY wanted that doll.
And then a few days before my third birthday, I saw a box on the dining room table that looked like the doll box (At almost 3, I couldn't yet read the cursive writing on the box, but I remember it looked as pink and pretty as the doll box in the store) ... and so I peeked. I lifted up the bottom corner of the box, and looked inside. It was the doll!
But instead of feeling good, I felt awful! At 3, I knew I had cheated, and on my birthday morning when I had to pretend to be surprised, I felt even worse.
I had the exact doll I had wanted, but my peeking had stolen some of the joy. I loved that doll (I still have her, in our storage for now) -- but I never forgot the lesson. On that spring day, I learned that some things are better left for the right time and place. And over and over, throughout my life, I've stopped myself from "looking ahead" or trying things that were best left for later...all because of Cuddles.
It's funny how a small event early in life can teach us so much. I've met so many people who have equally memorable -- and meaningful -- early memories.Events or words that shaped them for years after.
But this was such a little thing.
If it was a major event, I could understand the lasting impact. But this was small. And my parents never knew, so there was no punishment or scolding to make worse. So how could that small action have so much impact?
Maybe it's because we are a tabula rasa at that point, and in our uncluttered state, the little things mean more. Or maybe it's because we are still so fresh from G-d, and open to the lessons.
What lessons from childhood have you kept in your heart?
Happy Pink Saturday!