|Austin at Sunset ©Lindsay Shugerman 2011 All Rights Reserved|
But I have to face facts. For now I am here, in Austin. And I can make myself miserable, or I can learn some new things, meet some new people, and work on myself while I'm here so that the person who returns home will be better, more interesting, more sure of herself and have greater depth than the person I was when I left.
This is hard for me. If I find joy here, I feel like I'm being disloyal to home, and to those I left behind. I worked hard to get back to Florida after so many years away. I reconnected with those I had missed for so long, and I met new kindred spirits who also loved South Florida and called it home.
|Sailing off Miami ©Lindsay Shugerman 2010 All Rights Reserved|
This time, the excitement never happened. So now I need to learn a new way to see the world, and my location.
No, it's not going to turn around over night. I will still be homesick, I will still call Florida "Home." But I need to work at finding some reason to like it here, even if "love it here" never happens.
One way I am going to try and make that happen is with some new blogs. One, which I started in November, focuses on the details I see in the world. That one will allow me to bring in images I've collected throughout my travels, as well as new things I find here.
The second one will be about Texas style in decorating. I love texture and aged finishes, and if there's one thing Texas is excellent at, it's aging finishes. Think of this blog as shabby-chic meets Texas practicality. I am looking forward to working on that one.
The last one is a family project, and will be all about Austin and the surrounding area. We've been working on that one, and are almost ready to launch. By the way, if you're an Austin-area blogger, we will be looking for guest bloggers on that one.
I will still keep this blog, because this is where I share my thoughts, my joys and my sorrows. I've been neglecting this blog because I was too sad to write, and got tired of seeing my own whining. So I wrote and deleted, wrote and deleted, without ever hitting that publish button. Time for that to end.
Watch for links to all three new blogs next week.